Tuesday, September 10, 2024

Behind the Story: On the Block

The anthology, Hoboes, Hustlers, and Outlaws: Bad Boys and Macho Men is shipping! My newest novella, On the Block, appears within its pages. It’s a story set in 1979 about a twenty-one-year-old named Nicky, a street hustler from the armpit of Virginia, who’s trying to make a better life for himself, one trick at a time.

Today, I’d like to share a little about the story’s background.

My early sexuality blossomed in the nineteen-seventies in the little Southern city of Richmond, Virginia. It was a decade in which gay sex was still a criminal act. Being detected or caught destroyed families, careers, and lives. Even casting a stray, longing glance in the direction of an undercover cop could land a man in jail and his name in the newspapers.

The effects of Stonewall had not yet reached the South. My progressive parents had a number of friends who definitely were not straight, though no one would discuss or admit it. The confirmed bachelors who lived together in houses full of fussy antiques? Gay. The fashionable aging single men who ‘hadn’t yet settled down’ but would arrive to my folks’ dinner parties bearing a straw-wrapped bottle of red in one hand and in the other, several Blossom Dearie LPs? Incredibly gay. The burly female historian who shared an apartment and a pair of bulldogs with her ‘girl friend,’ who later sold me her gently-used Malibu as my first car? So gay. None of them identified as queer. They would have gone to their graves denying it.

Many did.

It was a decade in which men looking for sex with other men found themselves pushed to the margins; they were forced to seek each other in bars run by an unlawful element, or in parks closed after dark, or along dangerous city streets at night, where nice, normal people dared not venture. In these forbidden spaces, we all were outlaws. We consorted with other outlaws—criminals that the public viewed as menaces to society. If in these spaces we were arrested, or victimized, or beaten, or killed—well, criminals deserved what they got. Right?

Cruising these spaces was always dangerous. We always had to keep an eye and ear out for the approach of an outsider, or the gleam of a cop car in the distance. In the dark, more seasoned outlaws developed an almost supernatural ability to sense the the onset of trouble long before it arrived, so that we could warn our brothers and scamper to safety. It wasn’t an environment for the weak, the stupid, or the slow. Though we looked out for each other when and while we could, once those lights flashed and the sirens started to blare, it was every man for himself.

Most of those old cruising spots of mine still exist, forty-five years later. Open up Sniffies and you’ll see that Bryan Park is still one of Richmond’s most popular hookup spots, though its roads have been reconfigured and entryways changed since the days I would visit by dark. The walks by the James River where I accepted cash for quick trysts along the riverbanks—still active. Cruisers still haunt the shadier, more forested areas of both Maymont and Byrd Parks, where I used to wander provocatively after nightfall.

Despite an abundance of gay bars that certainly weren’t around during my teens and early twenties, despite the apps and the relative openness with which queer people circulate in my old hometown, men still hit up the traditional spots in the hope of finding random dick.

All the spots but one, that is: what used to be known as The Block. It’s the only of my old cruising locations that has its own Wikipedia page. It’s also the setting for my latest anthology story, On the Block, which you can order now at the link below.

The Block survived for forty years before me as a sometimes-migrating small section of Richmond’s downtown area known for male sex workers. In the late seventies, The Block had expanded. It started at the corner of the city’s then brand spanking new public library, two blocks west down Franklin Street to the YMCA, a block south to Main Street, then two blocks east back to the library. By day, the neighborhood was just a number of run-down, anonymous townhouses in an area of the city no one really visited.

After dark, though, the street transformed into the tiniest of gay villages. A handful of queer men rented rooms in the townhouses. Home from work, they’d open their windows and loudly blast disco hits on their turntables. Some hung cheerful holiday lights around their windows, or draped table lamps with scarves and fabric to bring color both to their habitats and to the street below. Men would perch their asses on the townhouse steps, both cruising and socializing in equal measure.

Then there were the hustlers. Summer nights, they’d prowl the streets in scores. Dozens of the most hardcore—or perhaps the hardest-pressed—would still turn out during the city’s mild winters. Down Franklin they would walk, then over to Main and back to the library, treading a rectangular circuit that all the while faced the streams of one-way traffic on those two streets. Every driver was a potential customer.

Who were these men behind the wheel? Mostly white guys from the wealthy West End of town or from out in the county. Some drove in from as far away as Ashland or Fredericksburg. Most sported wedding rings; many were professionals—lawyers, businessmen, physicians—with a little extra money to burn. Some would visit only every few months, when the itch for same-sex contact grew too unbearable. Others were such frequent and enthusiastic patrons that the hustlers would wave at their vehicles and shout their names, as if Norm walked into Cheers.

One of the more curious customs of The Block during my day is how the sex workers segregated themselves by skin color. White hustlers tended to walk the outer perimeter of the rectangle; Black men the inside. One could tell by which lane of the street a car drove what flavor a john, or customer, might prefer. The self-segregation didn’t extend to socializing. During the slower hours, men of both colors crossed over to laugh and joke, or to swap gossip and news about who’d moved on to a bigger city or who’d given up the business altogether, or who was out of commission for a couple of weeks after a visit to the free clinic. Once a pair of headlights pierced the dark, though, back they’d all scatter to their respective sides of the street.

I don’t recall the day I discovered The Block, but by around 1978, when I was fourteen, I was one of the white boys walking its circuits by cover of night. I’d tell my family after dinner I was heading to the downtown library with friends. If they assumed by the stack of books in my backpack that I’d be studying, well, that was my intent. I’d ditch the books in our back yard to be retrieved on my return, take the bus downtown from my leafy neighborhood, and walk The Block for a few hours until I arrived home by ten or ten-thirty with a pocketful of crumpled bills.

Hey, the library was always within sight, when I was stomping the pavement. And I did make new friends.

Afraid of attracting the wrong kind of attention at home, though, I never hit The Block more than once a week, and never stayed late. The action really picked up in the hours after midnight. Yet I was regular enough that I could expect to be greeted by guys from both sides of the street whenever I showed.

There was an essential difference between the other regulars and myself, though—and I’m not talking mere age. My teenaged sex work was an act of secret rebellion. I was the perfect little straight-A best little boy in the world who only took a stand for what he truly was in the city’s forbidden places, among my fellow outlaws. My family wasn’t wealthy and always seemed to be teetering on the brink of financial insecurity, god knows, but unlike every other man there, I didn’t have to support myself. For me, sex work wasn’t about making ends meet.

A lot of the men I knew during those years made their only money walking The Block. A few held down part-time or low-paying jobs during the day that The Block supplemented—there was one occasion when an older men from The Block’s inner circuit showed up as my substitute civics teacher, to our mutual surprise. Some sensed they were ill-suited to retail or office positions; hustling at night let them work when and how they pleased. Several talked big about earning just enough seed money to move on to a bigger city like D.C. or Philadelphia or NYC.

I don’t like generalizing about the sex workers I knew during that period of my life. Regardless of why these men sought or resorted to sex work, I was a mere dilettante. At the end of the night, I had a family who loved me and a warm home I could return to. I didn’t owe any bills. My earnings didn’t pay for groceries.

While my last anthologized story, Sleazy A, was a semi-autobiographical mashup of men I knew during my college years, On the Block is purely fictional, save for its setting. I didn’t base the big blond lunk Nicky (in the story, the poor guy aches to be known as ‘Snake Eyes’) on anyone in particular. I did know a muscly hustler on the edge of forty who always seemed to walk The Block in a tee with the sleeves ripped off, the better to display his bulging biceps; his hair was an amateurish bleached blond and he would bum cigarettes off the other working boys and mumble about how he was destined for better things. Perhaps if Nicky remained on The Block for another twenty years after this story, that’s who he might’ve turned into. I like to think he truly made something of himself in the end, though.

On the Block examines what happens when a stranger inserts himself into The Block’s established ecosystem to push it off-balance. At no point in my youth did I ever run up against a magazine reporter trying to liven up his resume with a seedy expose of sex workers. Every time I exchanged sex for currency, however, I would have to confront the prejudices men held against working boys. Clients would assume I was trash, or dumb as a rock, or that I sucked dick for money because I’d run away, or dropped out of school, or because someone had coerced me into the life. Some johns had dreams of saving me; they’d condescendingly assure me I wasn’t like the other scum on the street and dream of a future in which they would leave their wives and families for a happily ever after with a teen boy.

Thankfully, I was a smart enough to kid to recognize the bullshit for what it was. I learned very quickly that these transactions were rarely as simple as they should have been. Outsiders—whether they’re clients, observers, or enforcers of law—tend to project all kinds of fictional narratives onto the men they hire. To the client, sex workers were rarely people in their own right. They were dimwits who required education, or victims who needed to be saved. They were lost souls to convert, or perverts and deviants to arrest. 

My experience with the men of The Block was pretty much the same as anywhere else I’ve been employed, though. There were certain individuals I was always glad to see and with whom I was friendly, and others I wish stayed in their offices or some other section of the street. Some talked off my ear; others kept to themselves. Some had grand ambitions of advancement or even fame. Most, however, just wanted to get through their work, collect their paycheck, and head home at the end of their shift.

On the Block was a blast to write. The story gave me an opportunity to revisit an old stomping ground through new eyes and to capture its quirks and little beauties as I remember it in the late seventies. As I said earlier, The Block is just about the only old cruising spot of mine that no longer exists; I didn’t know it as a teen, but it had already been in decline before my arrival. The gay bars that had once operated there were only a legend when I first came on the scene. During the eighties and the early years of the HIV/AIDS crisis, johns stopped driving downtown and the rent boys began to vanish. The area was dead when I returned to Richmond in 1985. Today, the townhouses have been converted into genteel law firms and financial advisories and homes, the streets thoroughly gentrified. The buildings are still there, but The Block as I knew it is gone.

That’s what happens far too often with gay history and culture, however. As we are erased, our traditions and lore can too easily vanish. If sex work was my teen rebellion—my way of being seen for what I was—then perhaps this act of pornography is an old man’s insistence that some memories should not be lost.

There is a sweet side to even the seamiest of stories. And men will do a hell of a lot for a little sweetness, as Nicky discovers in On the Block.

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Sunday, September 1, 2024

Hustlers and Hoboes and Funerals

Thank you all for the many kind comments and emails I received after my last post here. I’m truly grateful for the support.

It’s been two weeks since my father passed. The shock of it has receded—somewhat, anyway. This last week, I traveled to Virginia for the viewing and funeral. Much to my surprise and relief, both went off not only without a hitch, but without any hurtful antics from the people I thought might cause a ruckus. My mom’s funeral, almost exactly thirty years ago, was a fucking circus thanks to a couple of family members. Everything this week, though, proceeded smoothly. Several old friends from middle and high school who’d happened upon my dad’s obituary in the local paper stopped by to say hello after several decades. I was pleased to talk with a number of my dad’s colleagues from his department at the university, who shared stories about his teaching legacy.

Most importantly, I was able to grieve without enduring any shenanigans.

My dad and I had a great and close relationship. I shared just about everything with him; he knew he could count on me in a crisis. Neither of us harbored secret resentments or grudges. Throughout my adult life, neither of us left anything unsaid. If we argued—and late in his life, we argued a lot about his hoarding, his stubborn refusal to consider downsizing or moving into assisted living, and his insistence that long-expired food was safe to eat—we said what was on our minds, hugged it out, and would always conclude the debate with a reminder that we loved each other. Total frankness and unconditional love: I think it’s the ideal relationship a kid can have with his parent. I was very fortunate to enjoy it with both of mine. It’s why, when both died, I mourned and continue to be sad at their loss, but I don’t have any issues left unresolved or guilt eating away at me.

It’s also why, when at various events this week people would say to me, Your dad really loved you, I confidently could reply, Thank you. I know.

One of my dad’s neighbors down his old street held a reception after the funeral. During the last couple of years, she’d been generous with him, bringing him the occasional meal when she’d made extra, or picking up treats from the supermarket. She’d also been something of a pain in my ass during the same time period. Every one of her favors struck me less like real altruism and more like a threatening quid pro quo, with my dad getting all the quids and me having to take care of the quos.

She’d take my dad a yummy dinner and tell him that oh, by the way, did he know his sagging wooden shutters were really bringing down the tone of the neighborhood? He really needed to take care of that. She and her daughter might present my dad a miniature Christmas tree during the holidays, while hinting it was a real shame how raggedy his boxwoods were getting, when all the houses around him had such nice front yards. Then my dad would report back to me how nice she’d been and what she said, and I’d have to hire handymen and landscapers to fix things up, to keep on this woman’s good side. The neighbor felt like a homeowner’s association Karen determined to enforce an imaginary neighborhood standard by holding my dad’s welfare hostage.

I wasn’t happy about having to leap whenever she decided my dad wasn’t doing his part to keep up the tone of the street—nor was I thrilled about the homophobic microaggressions I’d endure whenever I had to deal with her in person. It was because of those that I wanted to skip the reception entirely. But my dad had always been appreciative of her kindness, so I went.

It was a nice reception, sure. There were little sandwiches on buns. I love a little sandwich. What I don’t love, though, is being cut down by a meddler making passive-aggressive comments about my Northern lifestyle, or when my aunt asked when I had to return to work, cutting in to titter, oh, he’s basically retired, isn’t he? No, bitch. I am not retired, basically or remotely. Why diminish my teaching and writing in that way?

And she, like so many others, said, “Your dad really loved you!”

And I smiled and said, “Thank you! I know!”

She thought my reply the most hilarious thing ever. “I know!” she repeated, as if I’d let loose some delicious riposte. “I said your dad loved you, and you said, you know!” She laughed and walked away, shaking her head, leaving me clenching my fists and wondering if I had the nerve to do an upper decker in her downstairs guest bathroom.

My words hadn’t in the least been unpleasant in tone. I didn’t at all get her condescension. If she were to die, wouldn’t this awful woman want her daughter to carry on secure in the knowledge that she had been loved? Did this woman down the street who only knew my father for a mere four years actually think her words would be a revelation? In her family, is love something that’s never expressed?

If she’d said, I’m glad you know, that would’ve been appropriate! But laughing at my confidence in my dad’s love? I can’t fathom it.

Let the people you love know it, friends. There never should be any doubt.

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Moving on to some good news: I have a new story appearing in another vintage-style anthology of erotic gay fiction.

This particular collection is called Hoboes, Hustlers, and Outlaws: Bad Boys and Macho Men and will hit the shelves on October 1—exactly a month from today! The publisher describes it as “four tales of riding rails, selling tail, and sitting in jail,” and honestly, I couldn’t describe it any better than that.

(Although to be fair, I managed to get a sneak peek at the jail story and it didn’t involve much sitting. I’m kind of surprised the protagonist could sit at all.)

The novella I’ve contributed is called On the Block. It’s a tale set in 1979 of a young hustler working a small-town beat, who sees a magazine reporter as his easy ticket to the big time—yet it’s entirely possible the city slicker is using him for more than just a story. You will almost certainly be pleased to hear that it features some of the sleaziest and hottest sex I’ve ever penned—including a piss play scene that somehow I made humiliating not for the recipient, but for the guy doing the pissing.

I was so grateful and happy for the reception that my novella Sleazy A received when it appeared in Dirty Dorms and Fresh Men, this summer. Many of my friends and followers took the time not only to purchase and read the tale, but to message me and let me know how much they enjoyed it. More than a handful took photos of themselves (or part of themselves) with the book; a few even allowed me to post those on social media. And I loved doing it! The release felt less like a big party in which everyone celebrated gay erotic fiction. I can’t think of anything I’d rather be doing with y’all.

So let the party continue! Like Dirty Dorms and Fresh Men, you can pre=order the new Hoboes, Hustlers, and Outlaws online, or ask your local brick-and-mortar bookstore to order it for you. Bonus points if you march into a religious bookstore and make the request. If you pre-order in time, you’ll receive the book on release day.

I’ll be writing more in the future about the background behind On the Block. While it is fictional—definitely more fictional than the semi-autobiographical Sleazy A, anyway—a considerable amount of the material draws upon places and people I knew back in my own street hustling days, distant as they are.

And as for my next story, to be published much later this year? While my first two anthology inclusions were rooted firmly in the past, let’s just say the next will take place in a distant future…



Order your copy of Hoboes, Hustlers, and Outlaws from Amazon (available October 1)